Where, Oh Where Has My Willpower Gone

...everybody sing along.  Where, oh where has my willpower gone?  Oh, where, oh where could it be? Where, oh where has my willpower gone? Bring back my willpower to me!

I'm finding that I'm having a very hard time going from tracking my calories and worrying about weight, to just making good choices and letting the weight take care of itself.  Hold on. Let me re-phrase that.  I'm not having a hard time doing it, I'm just having a hard time doing it well.

I really am trying to turn that corner.  I'm not getting so obsessed with my weight and I'm just focusing on working out and making good food decisions.  Except when I'm not.  That's where I seem to be missing the willpower I once had. The small, yet very real, 3 pound weight gain is telling me that something isn't right. When left to my own devices, I"m not doing so well. When I get more comfortable with just "trusting the process", I get more comfortable in all my other choices.  While I may think that I'm on track with my calories, etc. for the day, in reality, I don't think that I am.

There's a fine line between obsessively tracking your weight and calories, and tracking enough to stay on track.  I need to find my happy medium.  I need to get back to the eating habits of when I was losing weight, but not get back to the obsessive, constant weight checking that went along with it.  I need to get back to exercising a little more of my willpower, but not stressing over every single bite.  I know I can lose the 3 pounds I've gained. I just need to figure out how to make it happen without getting back to old habits that I've fought so hard to get past.  I guess we'll see how this goes...