If I knew how to type out a scream, I would absolutely do it right now! Instead I'll just have to use lots of exclamation points to prove that I'm frustrated! Maybe frustrated isn't the right word. Maybe it's better to say that I'm in a serious funk. Not only have I NOT lost any weight for months, I've actually GAINED a little. How the hell did that happen? I'm seriously about to pull my hair out!
Luckily it's been a little while since I've been in a funk like this ~ but I'm in one now ~ and I don't like it at all. I don't like feeling the way I feel. I don't like feeling like I'm completely wasting my time and money. I don't like feeling like I'm never going to get to my goal weight. I don't like feeling like all my hard work has been for nothing. I'm at the beginning of a dangerous, self-doubting spiral, and I need to snap out of it quickly! I already know the damage I can do when I give up. I know that if I allow myself to continue to wallow in self-pity, I'm screwed. So, as much as I don't want to, I know I have to keep on going. I can't give up. I have to keep up with the workouts, maybe even switch up some things. I have to commit to being better about tracking my food. I need to just buckle down, re-focus, and keep on keeping on.
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