Support

Today I'd like to brag about my hubby for a bit.  Since I started, this blog has been all about me.  But, without my husband's support, I'm not sure I'd be able to do this. He's seen me fat, he's seen me thin.  He's seen me try the diet pills.  He's seen me do Weight Watchers.  He's seen it all and has supported me the entire time. But, his support goes so much farther than that. You see, I think I've pinpointed why I'm having such a hard time sharing my struggles with my trainer...
It's because he's a he.

I've been married for 13 years, but we've been together for 17 years.  In those 17 years I've never really opened up to a guy that wasn't my husband.  I just never thought it was acceptable or appropriate.  Now, don't get me wrong, I have male friends.  We talk about lots of stuff, but it's current.  Nothing that digs into my past.  I believe that you share that kind of stuff with a spouse or a girl friend.
Not another male.

I've talked with my husband about my struggles and he's been wonderful.  But, he gives me "husband" answers.    So, we had a long heart to heart last night.  I needed to hear from him that it was alright for me to share this stuff.  I needed to hear that he was o.k. with it.  I needed him to know how conflicted I was about the whole situation but how important I think it is for me to push through this wall. Not only is he o.k. with it, he totally gets it.  He completely understands.  He understands my hesitations, but agrees that I need to do this to finally rid myself of these insecurities once and for all.  I have his blessings and 100% support.
I married an amazing man.