Cain't Say No

There's a song in the musical "Oklahoma" that's lyrics are...

"I'm jist a girl who cain't say no. I'm in a terrible fix! I always say "come on, let's go", Just when I orta say nix!"

Now, I'm not saying that I can't say no to anything, just ask my kids!  But, lately, when it comes to saying no to the foods I should stay away from, I'm having a very hard time.  I know that a little of of this or that isn't going to hurt anything. But, when a little bit turns into a lot and every once in a while turns into every day, it's going to have consequences.  And believe me, I'm seeing them.

I realize that gaining a pound last week isn't the end of the world.  But, I was really hoping to inspire others with this blog.  It feels as though it's turning into a manual of what NOT to do.  I'm not sure I'm helping anyone in this rut that I'm in.  I want to continue to be honest and to chronicle this journey, both the ups and downs, but I also want there to be more ups.  I want it to be more than just my personal "bitch fest" about the difficulties of losing weight.  Yes, it's difficult, but it can be done...  Just not the way I'm doing it right now.

I think this all means that I need to get back to basics.  There's a very helpful, free website ~ fitday.com ~ which I've been using for quite a while.  It helps me count calories and figure out how much I burn in a day.  Journaling what I'm eating and how much I'm burning helped me to lose the first 20 pounds.  Sadly, I've gotten away from journaling because, frankly, I was sick of doing it.  However, since I've gained back 3 of those 20, I clearly need to get back to it.

So, that's where I am.  I'm getting back to basics.  I'm going back to what works for me.  I'm taking charge of this train before it derails!